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  Loddy-Dah

  Dolly Dennis

  GUERNICA • ESSENTIAL PROSE SERIES 104

  TORONTO • BUFFALO • LANCASTER (U.K.)

  2014

  Copyright © 2014 Dolly Dennis and Guernica Editions Inc.

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  David Moratto, interior designer

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  Library of Congress Catalog Card Number: 2013947105

  Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

  Dennis, Dolly, author

  Loddy-dah [electronic resource] / Dolly Dennis.

  (Essential prose series ; 104)

  Issued in print and electronic formats.

  ISBN 978-1-55071-831-7 (pbk.).--ISBN 978-1-55071-832-4 (epub).

  --ISBN 978-1-55071-833-1 (mobi)

  I. Title. II. Series: Essential prose series ; 104

  PS8607.E671L63 2014 C813'.6 C2013-905524-X C2013-905525-8

  Guernica Editions Inc. acknowledges the support of the Canada Council for the Arts and the Ontario Arts Council. The Ontario Arts Council is an agency of the Government of Ontario.

  We acknowledge the financial support of the Government of Canada through the Canada Book Fund (CBF) for our publishing activities.

  To my husband, Rick, and son, Tyler

  Contents

  Act 1, 1967

  Scene 1:Loddy

  Scene 2:The Garage Theatre

  Scene 3:Merde

  Scene 4:Alma and Bettina

  Scene 5:The Resurrection of Robbie Rabbit

  Scene 6:The Matador

  Scene 7:Sunday Prayers

  Scene 8:An Orderly Table

  Act 2, 1968

  Scene 9:The Robust Form

  Scene 10:The Limelite-A-Go-Go

  Scene 11:Eruptions

  Scene 12:Cocoon

  Scene 13:Verdun

  Scene 14:Thrown off the Wagon

  Act 3, 1969

  Scene 15:See Me, Feel Me, Touch Me, Heal Me

  Scene 16:Adult Games

  Scene 17:Saving Loddy

  Scene 18:Masquerade

  Scene 19:Evening Star

  Scene 20:L’amour et la paix

  Scene 21:Summer of Possibilities

  Scene 22:Out of this World

  Act 4, 1970

  Scene 23:Eclipse of the Sun

  Scene 24:Ville Emard

  Scene 25:Intermission

  Scene 26:The Sinking Ship

  Scene 27:Marcel and The Swiss Hut

  Scene 28:The Garage Coffee House

  Scene 29:The October Crisis

  Scene 30:Ball and Chain

  Scene 31:Life as Improv

  Acknowledgements

  Copyright

  All the world’s a stage,

  And all the men and women merely players;

  They have their exits and their entrances,

  And one man in his time plays many parts.

  — William Shakespeare

  All the world’s a stage and most of us

  are desperately unrehearsed.

  — Sean O’Casey

  (FADE IN)

  SCENE 1:

  Loddy

  Summer 1967

  When Loddy moved into the three-storey walk-up near McGill University, she painted her basement apartment the colour of a boiled egg, and then for the hell of it, stencilled a wide China Red semi-circle across the living room wall, top to bottom, and called it the Rising Sun. Red. Her mother, Alma, hated red. She said it was the colour of communists and blood — the colour of pain. So Loddy wore only red.

  Resembling a beefsteak tomato from her mother’s garden, Loddy sat Buddha-like on the front stoop of her building, a transistor radio dangling from her wrist like an oversized trinket on a charm bracelet. She dragged on a cigarette, Bette Davis in All About Eve, flicking hot ashes and letting them settle on her bare wrestler-size thighs. She felt no pain.

  Her stomach undulated in waves of blubber whenever she shifted positions. For someone so big, she was not shy about exposing her gummy arms, which jiggled under her red sleeveless t-shirt as she wiped the perspiration from her armpits. She tossed the half-smoked cigarette onto the sidewalk and, then with much effort, stood up, legs wide apart, to air-dry her innermost thighs, chafed from the friction and heat of a humid Montreal summer. Hands on hips, she stretched her entire body upwards and attempted a side bend, then strained her head towards Milton Street for signs of the van. Every little bit of exercise helped.

  A couple of nights before, to find relief from the unbearable heat, Loddy moved her divan, which doubled as a bed, against the wall just below the open living room window. She slept without any covers, any clothes — too hot for anything more than naked flesh. She woke in the middle of the night, startled by a tapping on the window, a movement of shadow, a noise of shuffling feet, and then more footsteps.

  What part of her naïveté compelled her to peek through the dusty vinyl venetians, only to meet an eyeball for an eyeball, then someone racing up the steps to the sidewalk above, and there she was, screaming ... or was she dreaming? She turned on the lights and her roommates, the cockroaches, scurried back to their hiding places as though they too had been awakened, terrified by her intruder.

  The next day, she told Bettina about the cockroaches and peeping tom.

  “You live in a dive, Loddy, and I’m going to tell Maw.”

  “Like, she still not talking to me?”

  “Loddy, ever since you left she wears black for Sunday Mass and lights candles for you in the name of the Blessed Virgin. What do you think?”

  “Christ.”

  “Yeah, he gets candles too.”

  Loddy shrugged and lit another cigarette to relieve her mounting hunger.

  “Damn, damn, damn. Now I’ll really be late.”

  She was determined not to eat today. Certainly there was enough fat to feed her body for months before she starved to death. She was ready for any major disaster — plane crash in the mountains, avalanche, or terminal disease. Bring it on. Yes, she would have a reserve of body fuel to survive anything.

  She took another swill of water then splashed what was left on her sunburned face and neck, rubbing the liquid into her pores as though it were cologne. Her cigarette dangled precariously from the right-side corner of her mouth, hot ashes dribbling, etching tiny holes, burn marks, into her t-shirt. Her bare feet were already sore from the swelling ankles and it wasn’t even noon, so she lowered her bulk back onto the cement step, and cranked up the volume to the Mamas and the Papas. With eyes seized shut, she pressed the transistor radio against her ear, a convergence of music, and bobbed to the beat, singing along. Her unsecured breasts, grazing her waistline, swayed with deliberate sluggishness.

  Loddy’s apartment was a gallery of photos and posters dedicated to the one she loved — Mama Cass Elliot. Th
ere was Mama Cass in various poses: in a yellow tent dress and white boots reclining on wicker; singing into a mike with head cocked to one side, costumed in a fuchsia caftan; a single head shot of her snuggling against Papa Denny in a limousine; and a group shot of the four, looking hip and sullen and serious. If a big girl like Mama Cass could make it, why not Loddy?

  She didn’t hear Dewey sneaking up behind her as she lowered the volume and sighed from the depths of her boredom.

  “Those things are going to kill you one day, Loddy.” He gently scuffed her shoulder.

  Startled, she jumped and almost stabbed her eye with the cigarette. It became airborne, bouncing off her red cotton shorts before landing on the bottom step.

  “Shit, Dewey!” Without hesitation, she lit another one.

  Dewey’s thick black hair usually fell loosely to his shoulder blades, but in this heat, he had pulled it back into a tight-fisted ponytail, accenting his pockmarked face and bulbous nose.

  “Loddy, why don’t you just put ketchup on those things and eat them like fries?”

  She inhaled the tobacco in one long pull of defiance and exhaled a rapid succession of smoke rings towards Dewey.

  “Are we ready then?” Dewey coughed through the curl of smoke.

  “Like, I have to wait for the exterminators to let them in. No one’s around today.” Puff, puff, puff.

  “Don’t know why they even bother. Can’t get rid of those bugs. This entire city is full of cockroaches and rats — bilingual politicians that don’t go away.” He chuckled at his feeble joke.

  xxx

  Dewey had entered everyone’s life in early spring. A Sunday. The St. Patrick’s Day parade, which had wound its way through the downtown core, was just breaking up and spectators were fanning out onto the main drag, St. Catherine Street, and into the nearby restaurants and Irish pubs. Floats were now parked around Dominion Square instead of horse-drawn caleches awaiting tourists and the military bands had packed up their instruments and were now searching for their rented buses near Windsor Station. Someone in the distance blew a final note on a tuba. Another drum roll and then silence. The parade had ended.

  A line-up snaked its way through the Laura Secord store at the corner of Peel and St. Catherine Streets, its customers spilling out onto the sidewalk. It was worth the wait for the first real ice cream of the season.

  The streets, flooded with huge puddles of slushy water, mini-pools at crosswalks, challenged pedestrians. The chic French girls in their boutique-bought mini-skirts and fashionable trench coats from Rue Elle on the main level of Place Ville Marie crossed the intersections with cautious elegance, lifting knees high, squealing “Mon Dieu” with every movement of their thighs. The more conservative English girls, who shopped at Marks and Spencer’s for practical apparel, sought out the lowest water level to navigate to the other side. It was the children though who marched like Russian soldiers, delighting in the continuous thumping of rubber boots in muddy water, splashing themselves, traipsing through the muck as their mothers gripped their hands and scolded them to “bouche-toi” or “hurry up!”

  The Garage Theatre Company — Aretha, Ulu, Percy, Danny, Stanley, Marcel and Loddy — had persuaded the manager of the Winston Churchill Pub on Crescent Street to unfold some of the patio chairs and tables so they could enjoy the brisk spring weather. They had sauntered behind the parade, walking the few short blocks from the theatre after a full day of rehearsals, mingling with the police motorcade. As was their habit, they detoured to unwind with drinks and conversation on this trendy street with its outdoor cafés lining the sidewalks. They had been sitting there perhaps five minutes, Marcel engrossed in the pages of Le Devoir, when they noticed the hippie staring at them from the other side of the street.

  “What a weird looking dude, but rather cute I must say.” Ulu jutted her neck for a subtle examination of this persona.

  “They say here,” Marcel said folding the newspaper in half, “that those islands are going to sink into the St. Lawrence River because of the weight of these pavilions. Maudit Cochon! What do they know?”

  EXPO 67 would officially open its gates in another month, but the city was already in dress rehearsal. A shining new Metro line, completed the previous year, would transport the world to the manmade islands south of Montreal. Fireworks were ordered for Cité du Havre; CA-NA-DA by Bobby Gimby was number one on the Canadian Hit Parade; and radio stations played the official theme song until it became a mantra: “Hey Friend, Say Friend/Un Jour, Un Jour.” Yes, it was a huge celebration in the city’s history. No matter what language was spoken, no matter what nationality was stamped on a passport, no matter what side of town was home, everyone, but everyone, was ready for a party and damn the expense.

  And everyone spoke English, or kept quiet.

  “Oh shit, he’s walking. Like, he better not be coming here.” Loddy tightened her red wool poncho around her body as though she were anticipating an attack.

  “Donc, they say that Terre des Hommes ...”

  “Man and His World, chum,” Stanley said.

  “... will be the way Canadians begin to know one another. Tu pense? We will see.”

  Then there he was, hovering over their table, a hand extended to everyone, soliciting money for bus fare.

  He said he was related to Donald Duck and to please, “Call me Dewey.” That got everyone’s attention.

  “You American?” Percy chomped on his cigar and evaluated him between fits of coughing.

  “Like you know, you know ... has anyone ever said you look just like Frank Zappa of the Mothers of Invention?” Loddy chirped through the smog of her own cigarette.

  “N’ York. Brooklyn. I’ve been told I look a lot like Dewey Duck, nephew to Donald. The beak, quack, quack.” And he pointed to his oversized nose. “And you are?”

  “Loddy. Nickname for Lotte. L-o-t-t-e which is short for Charlotte but, like, it’s such an ugly name, everyone, even my mother, just calls me Loddy like in Roddy McDowell.”

  “Well, Loddy-Dah, nice to meet you.”

  “Just Loddy.”

  His unkempt handlebar moustache blended seriously into his scruffy beard, distracting people from his snout, and so it was his eyes that were impossible to ignore — hypnotic bulbs, two lumps of iridescent coal, like a snowman’s. He called himself a photographer, an artist, and said he lived on hot air, charcoal pencils and love and, “Can I sketch anybody here? Twenty bucks or a couple of joints will do.”

  “Ooouuuuu, I love Frank Zappa!” Ulu’s Icelandic blue eyes, half shut, considered his face. She whispered in her best Marilyn Monroe voice: “Nobody’s ever done my body before.”

  “Really?” Dewey leaned in closer. “I can hardly believe that.”

  “You one of these drafters that escape through the border Champlain?” Marcel was peeling away the label off his empty Molson. Everyone waited for Dewey’s reply.

  “Depends on your point of view,” he said.

  It was Ulu, who adopted him like a stray pet, cleaned him up and became intrigued by this Frank Zappa look-a-like who identified himself as a cartoon character, scribbled portraits, and snapped photos of her nude body.

  Dewey and Ulu lived in an apartment on the main floor above Loddy’s. Some nights she could hear them have such vitriolic tantrums that Loddy could feel the ceiling vibrate from the force of their arguments. She could hear the door slam and Ulu’s furious steps clacking down the stairs to Loddy’s apartment.

  xxx

  “How many ciggies is that today, Loddy?”

  “Never you mind. Just let me die, okay.”

  Dewey had just plunked down beside her on the front steps when she saw The Blonde running barefoot down the middle of the street, sloshing with purpose through the puddles from the previous night’s rain. Loddy turned up the volume to Frankie Valli’s Can’t Take My Eyes Off You. She leaned over the railing for a be
tter view at this beauty, this vision from a Clairol commercial, a sleek pony prancing in slow motion, breasts barely mobile, her golden mane whipping high cheekbones — a goddess, a winner.

  “Wow! Like, look at that.”

  On the sudden rise Loddy felt lightheaded. Dizzy from hunger, wet with sweat from the humidity, she began to sway like the Tower of Pisa. She fainted dead away and slid down the railing, a short roller coaster ride, out of control, descending, just as the van with the psychedelic sign atop its roof, STERLING PEST CONTROL, animated graphics of vermin and lettering on the side doors — Specializing in: cockroaches, bees, mice and ants — screeched to a halt in front of the building. Loddy, on the hot pavement, her body bruised and lacerated, lay unconscious on her side like a beached whale waiting to be saved.

  A neighbour dialled the emergency operator and, as the paramedics were making a concerted effort to heave her onto the stretcher, she regained consciousness, protesting: “I’m okay, I’m okay.” Her wounded pride would not allow the humiliation of being swept into an emergency room where real patients were sick or dying while she was merely occupying space, rolls of fat from her stomach slipping over the edge of her elastic waistband like a doughy cupcake. A physical exam would have mortified her.

  Loddy, aware of the giggling gawkers, curious bystanders who surrounded the ambulance, ignored the commotion her tumble had caused. Just another ordinary day, she thought. Dewey grabbed her elbow and led her, like a guide dog, two feet per step, back to her apartment while the Pest Control men trailed behind.

  “Did you see her?” she wheezed. “Did you see her?”

  SCENE 2:

  The Garage Theatre

  Rita, manager and part-owner of the theatre, had just finished counting the float and was bored, bored, bored. There was nothing else to do in a tiny box office while waiting for an audience. She had already inspected her teeth in a compact mirror to ensure the raspberry pink lipstick wasn’t bleeding onto the veneers, and now with mouth wide and drawn like a grinning Cheshire cat, she massaged the gums with a middle finger. She shaped her mouth in an O and checked for any new wrinkles, re-applying lipstick like a child with a crayon, paint-on-paint, smacking lips, sucking cheeks, arching pencil-thin eyebrows, twisting her head this way and that until she was satisfied. Rita was primped and shaved and electrolyzed, her grey hair dyed a nightmare black and backcombed until the beehive formed a four-inch nest atop her head.